Alright! To those of you who will read this please overlook the angsty crap that I spew forth, I just have to get it out and have it in writing somewhere.

So, since my last journal entry I've moved to Denver with Tyler. It's been going great but he's started to get anxious and frusterated at life and he really misses Tucson and there's nothing I can do to help him. It makes me feel worthless and miserable because if there is nothing I can do for him is there any point in me being here? I mean he misses his friends, his fun, his job and just the freedom to go to places he knows. He has his mom here which at first I know helped but now I don't even know because he's shut that part of himself off to me. He's become so distant and moody and I can't live like this. I'm not a people person because people scare the crap out of me but I live off the energy and emotions that I get from them so I must keep myself around other people. But it's a big backfire when the person I see the most is closed off and having issues that he wont talk to me about and is constantly frusterated. I in turn feel like an utter worthless waste of his time and that he would be better off if I wasn't around. I want to tell him that I'm suffering to but I don't see how that would help. I'm just in constant turmoil and it wouldn't bother me as much as it does if I weren't getting migranes from stress. One of the fricking things sent me to the hospital because I thought it was leading to something MUCH worse than what it was. So now added to my already monumental stress and silent suffering I know have a huge bill that I can't pay off. I can't even make monthly payments of $50 because the job I finally got is only part time seasonal. I can't stand this much longer! I just want to run away sometimes, not back home, just away. I'm so numb half the time and then when I feel something it's just despair, and a double dose of it because the person I love and depend on so much because he's the only person I know here is wallowing in it I can't breathe. I just wish he would come to me but I know he wont because he's a lot more independant than I am and is probably really annoyed with me because I'm constantly trying to see if I can help him. I feel like I'm pushing him away and that he'll come to hate me and all the shit I went through to get here and to be with him is going to backfire into my face.

**Edit**
Alright, so I talked it out and lifes much better. It still feels great to get it out in the open like that.